I'm the type of girl that overthinks, over-analyze and believes in crazy signs and dreams.  I use my heart more than my head sometimes.  I am emotional - to a  fault and most of the time, says too much to certain people and wishes i didn't after.

I often do something and kick myself in the butt after for doing it.  I think non-stop of the whatifs and the could'ves.  I am overly concern about things and people I truly care about that sometimes I get myself in touble for it.  But a friend told me - i could be all that but that doesn't make me broken.

That made me smile.  The kind of smile that can be felt through the heart.  I will work on being too emotional and saying too much.. but for now I am glad to say.. I may be flawed but I am not broken.

Year-End

‘09 is for thanksgiving and lessons.  A year of drama, reunions and starting over; pushing and pulling of boundaries set for myself.  It is a year of learning about people around me and even things about me.  Missing old friends and making new ones. Such a great year!



 Things I’m grateful for:

• I turned 26 this year and felt oh so mature! Hahaha
• Finished SCP after a year of dilly-dallying about what I want and don’t want
• Went back to school.  All the waiting and the whining seems to be worthless after taking that first step. 
• Friendships that grow beyond the walls of PS.
• All the other little things that made each little moment of my year as wonderful as it is.

Things I’ve learned and thought about:

©  Sometimes, life has a better idea
©  Other people’s feelings are more important than my opinion
©  I can stand being with people that I don’t necessarily like, but I choose not to.
©  Changes are okay - sometimes
©  I am my worst critique –I question my own intensions several times even.
©  Nothing is as it seems, but taking it at face value is easier on the heart  J    
©  Life has a way of balancing itself out.
©  Laughing chase away all types of illness.
©  Crying might not solve things, but it helps you feel a tiny bit better.
©  Listening to people could be rewarding
©  There are definitely different kinds of people out there – and they WILL surprise you!
©  The hardest part of starting over is deciding for sure that you are starting over.
©   When you expect things to be easy.. it might just not be.
©  I wear my emotions like I wear my clothes.
©  There are things that you gotta talk about just because.
©  My friends know me and there is no point in hiding my emotions
©  Technology bridges gaps.  MMS, SMS, Emails and Phone calls play vital roles in staying in touch with people who matter.
©  Sometimes beating yourself thinking about stuff isn’t enough.. you gotta talk yourself through it.
©  Hugs are the best things in the world
©  It’s okay to make the first move if it will make things all better
©  Its okay to cry and feel bad sometimes – but there shall be a point where you pull yourself together

With these I close the year and start anew.  2010 shall be AWESOME!  I know it!

thankies

I am thankful for so much I’m afraid if I list down everything I wouldn’t be able to stop.  But I will take a chance, here I go…

Family – people I didn’t choose but fit wonderfully.  Could be dysfunctional at times, makes me tear my own hair out but I know would stick with me forever.

Friends -  old and new; the reason for all the drama in the world! J Those I specifically picked and those that I have gracefully stumbled upon in this wacky lifetime.  All of them I chose.

Hugs – it’s the best thing in the world. You need it to celebrate and when you feel sad.

The seemingly mundane stuff of everyday life that makes it sweet and worth it:

©       Oldfriends.newfriends

©       phonecalls with clang

©       maldita thoughts with my girls

©       venting sessions with Z over YM

©       ym conferences

©       lifestories of people i get to share or listen to

©       conversations that left me thinking

©       pjtime with noel

©       Chat with Bianca

©       marlon’s dancing prowess

©       gracie’s incredible jokes

©       decisions I make and will be making in the future

©       pictures and the memories they represent

©       books.

©       Prayers

©       Owen time sa dating tagpuan

©       Laugh – the regular and the ‘till you cry type.

©       Mcdonalds

©       Starbucks chocolate cake

©       Salcedo Park

©       BM duties

©       Elite meets

©       Twitter and Facebook and Multiply and Tumblr

©       School and all the craziness involved in it

©       Lovebug

©       Gmail

©       Lamierda time

©       Movie dates with sibs

©       Silly songs for silly episodes of my life

©       ASAP.Ellen.GG.Glee.Brothers andSisters.How I Met Your Mother.

©       Cat/power naps

©       Trials/Tests – whether I passed with flying colors or miserably failed

©       Taylor Swift’s ‘you wear high heels, I wear sneakers, she’s cheer captain and I’m on the bleachers”

©       Tristan and Anne’s seldom messages and invite to have dinner or go drinking

©       One for the road sessions

©       Routines

©       Familiarity of Chucks

©       AMAZING Internet and Technology

©       SMS and MMS

©       Running water, indoor plumbing and airconditioning

©       Cyber high-five and rolling-eyes and hugging emoticons

©       heart-to-heart’s

©       confessions that warmed my heart

©       hirits

©       fan – for wind effex

©       cute notebooks and pens

©       original Pringles

©       bookstores

©       stars

©       random acts of kindness

quote-unquote

“Friends are people that touch your heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them. They’re the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don’t judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are.You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs and smiles. Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world. I find my time with my friends the best times of my life.”

Quote-Unquote

“Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends. You gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend, and that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love. You lose love. You realize all long that you’ve been loved. You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that. You then learn from that and are glad that you did. You have your ups. You have your downs. You see good movies. You see bad movies. You wonder if your life is just one big movie. You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and are glad that you’re you. You love life. You hate life. In the end, you just find yourself happy to be living life.”



I read it in one of the tumblrs i follow and loved it! :)

missing

Dear Clang and Z,

I should be working on my 2 case studies as I write this, but as usual am too tamad to do it.  I miss you both more everyday .  I do. I miss everything we do together.  All of it.  I miss preshift moviedates and aftershift mall adventures.  I miss our conversations from serious to crazy stuff.  The way we would laugh about everything, and i mean everything. Madita thoughts and what-would-you-do-if-you-win-the-lotto lists.  I miss text messages of lines from books we are currently reading and sharing new nail polish with each other.

  Things are fine but i guess i just really miss you.  Hugs! Ahlabshoons!

breathehope

dum spiro spero

i learned this latin phrase this week and luvluvluv it!

Our Lessons in Life

Tagged by Sunny in Facebook.  :)

I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. The same goes for true love.


I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that you can keep going long after you can't.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.


I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.


I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.

I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I've learned that two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.

I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I've learned that the people you care about most in life are sometimes taken from you too soon.

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice.


I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

Just a quick note today

i have been having really good weeks lately and am thankful. :)

really thankful.

friends, they are the family we choose.

thankful for friends. Old and New.

good conversations, those that we would remember years from now.

Hirits. Yung funny and those that make me roll my eyes.

routines.  ilovethem.

thankyou. thankyou.

inmyhead

I have so much I want to write about.  Things that happened and things I realized.

But for some reason I just couldn’t find the right words, or make all the thoughts come together.

And so, I leave you with this picture.

Ilikeit

kinda draws a picture of whats in my head..

at least some of it.

hahaha.