So yeah, I've been pretty lazy in writing.  And I won't make any lame excuses.  I have nothing except I try but I am just always drawing blank. 

But here are some pictures I have from my phone characterizing my life as of late..

Ga and Chai during one of our pit stops going to Manaoag.

Joma, Kobe and Vins being silly in the gym

Jermaine cutiepatootie posing for me after cupcake time :)

Sisters ❤️❤️❤️

Vins, Marl and I showing our teef. :p

Hmmm. Doing this post made me realize I do not take as much pictures as I used to.  But I know I have tons of videos.  Maybe I can post some here once I am able to upload them all on vimeo. :) 

Ways to Know if You're Growing Up - Or not.

I used to keep a blog over at multiply. A blog that I have taken down long ago, but I was looking over my mail archives and saw some notifications from my posts before.  It is fun reading about my old self and realizing I have changed very little since. That could be a bad thing, no?

Anywho, on March 16, 2009 i posted this.

One of my favorite blogs to read is The Wild and Wily Ways of a Brunette Bombshell.  In her archives, she posted an entry entitled 9 ways I know I'm growing uP.  It Caught my attention because the first one was, 1. I've given up soda. Not entirely, but almost.  I love it.  I shared this with a friend who also liked the post and asked me what would be my 9 ways. As usual it made me think.  Wala akong maisip kahit isa.  I’m resigned to the idea that I may not be grown up yet.  I have a lot more growing up to do I guess.  A LOT MORE!

But this wonderful friend that I have amazingly wrote his 9 Ways in less than 6 mins.  Grabe noh?!  After he finishes typing his answers isa lang ang nasabi ko: shet grown-up ka na nga!  With his permission.. Instead of mine, I am posting HIS 9 Ways he knows he's growing up.
 1. I become more realistic than idealistic
2. I become less self-conscious
3. I only mind people who matter
4. I learn to forgive
5. I let go of my convictions if I'm given a more logical reason to believe otherwise
6. I gave up my vices- soda, cigs, pork, beef.  Meaning I live a lot healthier with proper diet and exercise
7.  I spend less on clothes and more on things that will enrich my experience like traveling
8. I earn more and get to share more
9. I laugh at my old self and realize how I like what I have become over the years.
And so.. while I type this, hindi pa rin ako nakakaisip but I am not  in a hurry.  I wish i could answer the question as fast as he can.  Pero hindi I can't eh.  Not yet, i guess.  But It'll come to me.  I know it.

This totally made me think again! Golly, how do I know if I am growing up.. it had been 5 years and I haven't gotten around to making my list.  I have been racking my brain and nothing. So yeah, here's a list of ways I am still a big baby.

1.  I am scared shitless of change. I dont like the fact that things can change in a heartbeat. It makes me uneasy. 
2. I do not like confrontations.  I find myself doing things that aren't my responsibility because I'd rather finish it than confront people about their inefficiencie.
3. I overthink. All the time.

There's probably a million and one more ways to prove am a baby but I am cutting this list short. Yes. Yes I am.

Today.

I hate hate hate the fact that despite my good reason, I still get affected by things that I have for real no control over. 

Today, something happened that trully made me want to scream. I felt hurt. Then immediately felt stupid for feeling hurt. I should be wiser and tougher and ultimately unaffected - but I wasnt, unfortunately. 

Tomorrow will be another day. I guess.

Life Update

I am currently taking a short break from work to write this down because I am getting a massive headache.  I know I know. I have been a bit of an MIA again.  I know you know I will say it is because life has again taken over everything.  I have no excuse.  I wish I can write more.  I do, only for the simple reason that it gives me an outlet to breathe out all of the things that have been building up inside of me - good, bad and ugly. 

Life has been pretty good the last couple of weeks.  Some days were even awesome. I have been spending time with friends which is sweet because for awhile there I was totally becoming anti-social. :p. As you know Z came home for a short visit. That was fun.  Got to spend time with her and Clang and our other friends from PS.

Marl, Gracie and I with some more friends caught Wicked! It was amazing!!  Everything was perfect, I am so glad I was able to see it. :) 

I have been spending time with Noel and Kiko too.  Just going to movies and a quick drive to Tagaytay. 

There was just a slight hospital scare for a bit. Last week, my dad got rushed to the hospital after passing out in Church.  He stayed for a week but all is good now.  There are still tests but I'm sure everything will be alright.  We drove to Manaoag for thanksgiving that my dad is well and healed. 

Here are some pics from the Manaoag Trip. 

So, that is pretty much everything I have been up to.  Will write more soon- crossing-fingers. :) 

 

 

Crazy Week that is Z's Homecoming

Last week had been such a super fun week!  Zue Anne came home after 5 years for a short visit home.  We had round up the gang for a "surprise" party and try and spend as much time as we can before she return to South Africa.


I cannot articulate how awesome the week has been.  Truthfully, I do not know where or how to start.  I just realized how amazing and fun and wonderful my friends are. The week we did nothing but eat and laugh and do silly things like we used to.  So here are just some pictures from my phone.


Sunday was when we had to execute the "Surprise Z Project".  I am the worst organizer in the world so everybody had to help.  The fact that Z is expecting to the surprise wasn't helping either. :P  But it went well.  The food prepared by Clang and Ed was super yummy!

 

 our first picture together after 5 looong years

 

Photobooth!

 

couples.

 

girls groupshot

 

Photobooth 2.

me and John.  

 

after the "hot seat"

Wednesday - we met Z and John for breakfast in Rustic Mornings by Isabelo. The food is good and filling.  We plan on going back.

 

first peeps in the restaurant.

 

Bianx and Z!

 

the group shot!

 

girlfriends!!

  

we played a game of heads-up!  So much fun!

Thursday Morning we had breakfast date again, this time over at Zue's place.  Clang and I stayed over as promised since there is another get together for Z that evening and she is flying out Friday night.

the girls with Mon

 

good morning!

good morning photobooth

bracelets from South Africa

Loony.

I am crazy. I know this is true. I like routine and I like knowing what to expect at certain times of the day because surprises aren't really my thing.

I am crazy.  I believe to sometimes a terrifying degree that things go right because of how I did certain things to start the day.  That it will be good because of the time I set the alarm, the shampoo I used or if I drank a glass of water before I showered.  Yes I am crazy.

If I had a really good day, I will try to do things the very same way for a week- insanely thinking I will have a really good week if I change as little as possible.  I am crazy. 

I am a loony and I am okay with it. 

Genius Gillian

Over the weekend all I did was read.  I read all of the awesome books of Gillian Flynn.  It was such a treat.  She is a genius for writing them books!

Gone Girl.  I started reading this last year but stopped because I thought it dragged so much.  I was not enticed by the characters in the beginning and so I just stopped.  I stopped and read other books.  I picked it up again because some of my friends are gushing about it on twitter.  I  started reading and thank God I did!  I just love Amy Elliott Dunne. She is a psycho witch and I love to hate her!  

Dark Places.  I was not thrilled that much by this book.  I am glad it was the last one I read. I was not drawn to any of the characters and I really didn't find the plot very interesting.  This is not to say that it was not good because it was.  I just didn't like it that much. The Days weren't very likable either.

Sharp Objects.  Now this is my favorite of the three!  It is twisted and disturbing and wonderful.  I love everything about this book!

Oh yeah, can we all just stop and admire how gorgeous and simple these covers are?! Well done Gillian Flynn, Well Done! 

Picture.

Over at tumblr, I shared this  picture I saw from weheartit.  Now, I am in no way shape or form tumblr famous and the number of reblogs this picture got might not even be that impressive but seriously, I have not gotten this many notes in a post!

This kind of made me think.  Are we in general, all looking for something like this? 

Personally speaking, I liked this picture because it conveys a certain intimacy without being vulgar.  Obviously, the people in the picture is a couple. I imagine them in love.  In love and comfortable.  In my mind, this is just an ordinary day and they are just talking about anything and everything. Amazing how this picture created all that. Wow. 

Things I know at 30

1.       Friendship, it ends.  Not all friendships last. Even the strongest friendships can end and sometimes there is really nothing you can do but to let go.  It is okay. Sad but okay.

2.       More than anybody, I know what would make me tick.  This gives me the power to decide what would get to me and what I would shrug off.

3.       Loneliness is a strong force and sometimes it is so palpable you can feel it in your bones. You wouldn’t know when this will hit but when it does, you just have to cry it out.  Cry it out and move on.

4.       Failure is eminent.  It happens and it might feel like the whole world just collapsed – especially if you gave it everything you’ve got. 

5.       Not all battles must be fought.  Choosing your battles can be tricky but it is necessary. There is no point in losing precious time and energy in things that simply doesn’t make you any better than when you started.

6.        Wins.  Little precious moments of life that are just awesome.

7.       Nothing cures a bitter spell better than laughing with friends over good food.

8.       It is always easier said than done.  ALWAYS.

9.       Taking it to bed is always my first answer to problems life throws me.  I really need to sleep the edge off.

10.   YouTube is a total time suck.  If you want to be productive, close that browser and stay away from that site!

11.   Not all days are bad days. 

12.   Books.  God’s gift.  There should always be time for reading.

13.   Crying helps.

14.   Laugh. Laugh until every bit of you is exhausted from that sweet exercise.

15.   That bit about patience being a virtue? Totally true!  In this age of time is money and all things available instantaneously, it is very hard to be patient.  

16.    There are all kinds of people in this world and you never really stop being surprised by them. 

17.    Those you love can hurt you the most. 

18.    Praying cures our aching soul.

19.    Music must be explored

20.    Hugs are the best things. 

 

Reading Challenge

Last Year, I did the reading challenge again over at Goodreads.  As you know I love reading but setting a goal kind of makes me more conscious of carving out time to actually read.

I set a goal of  75 books for 2013 but unfortunately I didn't finish it. I still read a lot but being crazy busy last year made it a bit more difficult. I ended the year with 53.   Nevertheless, I am still proud.

My Top 5 Reads last year

1. Eleanor and Park 
2. The Book Thief
3. Hopeless
4. The Triple Agent
5. Tiger Lily