Just some pictures from my iPhone. :)

waiting for Chai during dinner

when life serves crazy, get your crazy friends and sit down for coffee

yes, breakfast with friends is always awesome!

waiting for table during dinner

their turn :)

Gracie brought her intax and we kinda went crazy.

booth.

running into Owen in Salcedo Market! :D

on our way to Saturday Market

friends and coffee

going to Divi with sisters and Mac

after two shifts, its time to hash it out with friends :D

Monday.

I cant believe it is Monday again.  I am very much not ready for it.  I haven't even made sense of all the things that happened last week then here comes Monday wanting to start again.  I've had a crazy exhausting week to say the least.  I was so exhausted I found myself crying several times because there's really nothing else I could do.  I was physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted.  I AM EXHAUSTED.

I felt taken advantage of. I felt duped. It wasn't a fun feeling to have and to add to that there are some weird things on the side. Sad and weird.  Why does it have to be so complicated all the time?  

I am tired and I haven't yet recovered from the disaster that is my life last week.  And now Minday is here - how fun. 

Dad's 65th

Last week was my dad's 65th birthday. To celebrate, my sibs and I arranged a small suprise swimming party for him.  This actually kills two birds because we get to celebrate his birthday and the kids are able to cool-off and swim some. 

It wasn't very easy to pull this off since all of us have work and we are really very bad in keeping secret and arranging things but by God's glory we are able to pull it off.  It was awesome and fun and worth it.  

Link for the surprise video! :). 

here are some pictures! 

                    Going to the venue

               Daddy's gift! Murphy :)

                   With Ga and Mac

      Daddy with Me and Jan and Lucas

      With the sibs, nieces and nephews

                     Family Picture!!

Ugh

and sometimes loneliness hits you so bad it is not even funny. That feeling that something should be happening but nothing is.  That heavy but not really feeling in the pit of your tummy? That feeling that won't ever go away no matter how hard you try to breathe it out?  

That feeling is here with me now.  And no matter how hard I try to shake it, its here.  Such a stupid feeling to have.  

Answered Prayers

Sometimes, despite good reason I do and feel things that I  know I shouldn’t.  To make excuses is easy, but the heart knows and believe me the mind would not shut-up about the truth. So I talk.  I talk to myself.  I try to reason and argue until I can’t anymore, because I can’t even win an argument with myself.  I seek help.  I call a friend – or two, to hash it out.  I listen and try to put reason to action.  But I fail most of the time because it’s just really too difficult.

Then I pray.  My heart sometimes does this even before my brain.  It would cry out so no matter how difficult it is, the sweet misery would be taken away.  Then God, the universe, fate would make things happen.  It actually makes it possible to do what needs to be done.  A situation will present itself that would make it easy for me to just do it.  And sometimes it is bitter-sweet. But as all answered prayers are, it is really not how we expected it and we just have to receive and be grateful.

Life thru my iPhone Pictures

 

So yeah, I've been pretty lazy in writing.  And I won't make any lame excuses.  I have nothing except I try but I am just always drawing blank. 

But here are some pictures I have from my phone characterizing my life as of late..

Ga and Chai during one of our pit stops going to Manaoag.

Joma, Kobe and Vins being silly in the gym

Jermaine cutiepatootie posing for me after cupcake time :)

Sisters ❤️❤️❤️

Vins, Marl and I showing our teef. :p

Hmmm. Doing this post made me realize I do not take as much pictures as I used to.  But I know I have tons of videos.  Maybe I can post some here once I am able to upload them all on vimeo. :) 

Ways to Know if You're Growing Up - Or not.

I used to keep a blog over at multiply. A blog that I have taken down long ago, but I was looking over my mail archives and saw some notifications from my posts before.  It is fun reading about my old self and realizing I have changed very little since. That could be a bad thing, no?

Anywho, on March 16, 2009 i posted this.

One of my favorite blogs to read is The Wild and Wily Ways of a Brunette Bombshell.  In her archives, she posted an entry entitled 9 ways I know I'm growing uP.  It Caught my attention because the first one was, 1. I've given up soda. Not entirely, but almost.  I love it.  I shared this with a friend who also liked the post and asked me what would be my 9 ways. As usual it made me think.  Wala akong maisip kahit isa.  I’m resigned to the idea that I may not be grown up yet.  I have a lot more growing up to do I guess.  A LOT MORE!

But this wonderful friend that I have amazingly wrote his 9 Ways in less than 6 mins.  Grabe noh?!  After he finishes typing his answers isa lang ang nasabi ko: shet grown-up ka na nga!  With his permission.. Instead of mine, I am posting HIS 9 Ways he knows he's growing up.
 1. I become more realistic than idealistic
2. I become less self-conscious
3. I only mind people who matter
4. I learn to forgive
5. I let go of my convictions if I'm given a more logical reason to believe otherwise
6. I gave up my vices- soda, cigs, pork, beef.  Meaning I live a lot healthier with proper diet and exercise
7.  I spend less on clothes and more on things that will enrich my experience like traveling
8. I earn more and get to share more
9. I laugh at my old self and realize how I like what I have become over the years.
And so.. while I type this, hindi pa rin ako nakakaisip but I am not  in a hurry.  I wish i could answer the question as fast as he can.  Pero hindi I can't eh.  Not yet, i guess.  But It'll come to me.  I know it.

This totally made me think again! Golly, how do I know if I am growing up.. it had been 5 years and I haven't gotten around to making my list.  I have been racking my brain and nothing. So yeah, here's a list of ways I am still a big baby.

1.  I am scared shitless of change. I dont like the fact that things can change in a heartbeat. It makes me uneasy. 
2. I do not like confrontations.  I find myself doing things that aren't my responsibility because I'd rather finish it than confront people about their inefficiencie.
3. I overthink. All the time.

There's probably a million and one more ways to prove am a baby but I am cutting this list short. Yes. Yes I am.

Today.

I hate hate hate the fact that despite my good reason, I still get affected by things that I have for real no control over. 

Today, something happened that trully made me want to scream. I felt hurt. Then immediately felt stupid for feeling hurt. I should be wiser and tougher and ultimately unaffected - but I wasnt, unfortunately. 

Tomorrow will be another day. I guess.

Life Update

I am currently taking a short break from work to write this down because I am getting a massive headache.  I know I know. I have been a bit of an MIA again.  I know you know I will say it is because life has again taken over everything.  I have no excuse.  I wish I can write more.  I do, only for the simple reason that it gives me an outlet to breathe out all of the things that have been building up inside of me - good, bad and ugly. 

Life has been pretty good the last couple of weeks.  Some days were even awesome. I have been spending time with friends which is sweet because for awhile there I was totally becoming anti-social. :p. As you know Z came home for a short visit. That was fun.  Got to spend time with her and Clang and our other friends from PS.

Marl, Gracie and I with some more friends caught Wicked! It was amazing!!  Everything was perfect, I am so glad I was able to see it. :) 

I have been spending time with Noel and Kiko too.  Just going to movies and a quick drive to Tagaytay. 

There was just a slight hospital scare for a bit. Last week, my dad got rushed to the hospital after passing out in Church.  He stayed for a week but all is good now.  There are still tests but I'm sure everything will be alright.  We drove to Manaoag for thanksgiving that my dad is well and healed. 

Here are some pics from the Manaoag Trip. 

So, that is pretty much everything I have been up to.  Will write more soon- crossing-fingers. :) 

 

 

Crazy Week that is Z's Homecoming

Last week had been such a super fun week!  Zue Anne came home after 5 years for a short visit home.  We had round up the gang for a "surprise" party and try and spend as much time as we can before she return to South Africa.


I cannot articulate how awesome the week has been.  Truthfully, I do not know where or how to start.  I just realized how amazing and fun and wonderful my friends are. The week we did nothing but eat and laugh and do silly things like we used to.  So here are just some pictures from my phone.


Sunday was when we had to execute the "Surprise Z Project".  I am the worst organizer in the world so everybody had to help.  The fact that Z is expecting to the surprise wasn't helping either. :P  But it went well.  The food prepared by Clang and Ed was super yummy!

 

 our first picture together after 5 looong years

 

Photobooth!

 

couples.

 

girls groupshot

 

Photobooth 2.

me and John.  

 

after the "hot seat"

Wednesday - we met Z and John for breakfast in Rustic Mornings by Isabelo. The food is good and filling.  We plan on going back.

 

first peeps in the restaurant.

 

Bianx and Z!

 

the group shot!

 

girlfriends!!

  

we played a game of heads-up!  So much fun!

Thursday Morning we had breakfast date again, this time over at Zue's place.  Clang and I stayed over as promised since there is another get together for Z that evening and she is flying out Friday night.

the girls with Mon

 

good morning!

good morning photobooth

bracelets from South Africa