Truth is I've so much to write about. I've yet to blog about my stint in Cebu and the places I have visited there like a whirlwind. I also want to write about my latest visit to the National Museum - walking about in Manila. 

I will have to carve time and sit and actually put to paper - or type to screen my thoughts. But for now, I have quite a bit of things to do. :( 

It is Monday afternoon and I should really sleep. But my mind is going haywire again about so many things. I am exhausted from overthinking.  I need to just stop but how do I do that?  How do I escape my own head? Ugh.

then it hits you. it hits you so hard it feels like you just got ran over by a car. and it backed up and ran you over again. 

Tonight.

Tonight more than any other days, I am thankful for friends and family.  In two short days, my sister is flying out of the country.  It is just for a year, but that is still  a long time.  I will miss her.  I will probably cry when we drive her to the airport but tonight I am going to sleep with a thankful heart.  Thankful for friends and family and that way that they bleed into each other. 

My life lately through my iPhone pictures

Just some pictures from my iPhone. :)

waiting for Chai during dinner

when life serves crazy, get your crazy friends and sit down for coffee

yes, breakfast with friends is always awesome!

waiting for table during dinner

their turn :)

Gracie brought her intax and we kinda went crazy.

booth.

running into Owen in Salcedo Market! :D

on our way to Saturday Market

friends and coffee

going to Divi with sisters and Mac

after two shifts, its time to hash it out with friends :D

Monday.

I cant believe it is Monday again.  I am very much not ready for it.  I haven't even made sense of all the things that happened last week then here comes Monday wanting to start again.  I've had a crazy exhausting week to say the least.  I was so exhausted I found myself crying several times because there's really nothing else I could do.  I was physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted.  I AM EXHAUSTED.

I felt taken advantage of. I felt duped. It wasn't a fun feeling to have and to add to that there are some weird things on the side. Sad and weird.  Why does it have to be so complicated all the time?  

I am tired and I haven't yet recovered from the disaster that is my life last week.  And now Minday is here - how fun. 

Dad's 65th

Last week was my dad's 65th birthday. To celebrate, my sibs and I arranged a small suprise swimming party for him.  This actually kills two birds because we get to celebrate his birthday and the kids are able to cool-off and swim some. 

It wasn't very easy to pull this off since all of us have work and we are really very bad in keeping secret and arranging things but by God's glory we are able to pull it off.  It was awesome and fun and worth it.  

Link for the surprise video! :). 

here are some pictures! 

                    Going to the venue

               Daddy's gift! Murphy :)

                   With Ga and Mac

      Daddy with Me and Jan and Lucas

      With the sibs, nieces and nephews

                     Family Picture!!

Ugh

and sometimes loneliness hits you so bad it is not even funny. That feeling that something should be happening but nothing is.  That heavy but not really feeling in the pit of your tummy? That feeling that won't ever go away no matter how hard you try to breathe it out?  

That feeling is here with me now.  And no matter how hard I try to shake it, its here.  Such a stupid feeling to have.  

Answered Prayers

Sometimes, despite good reason I do and feel things that I  know I shouldn’t.  To make excuses is easy, but the heart knows and believe me the mind would not shut-up about the truth. So I talk.  I talk to myself.  I try to reason and argue until I can’t anymore, because I can’t even win an argument with myself.  I seek help.  I call a friend – or two, to hash it out.  I listen and try to put reason to action.  But I fail most of the time because it’s just really too difficult.

Then I pray.  My heart sometimes does this even before my brain.  It would cry out so no matter how difficult it is, the sweet misery would be taken away.  Then God, the universe, fate would make things happen.  It actually makes it possible to do what needs to be done.  A situation will present itself that would make it easy for me to just do it.  And sometimes it is bitter-sweet. But as all answered prayers are, it is really not how we expected it and we just have to receive and be grateful.

Life thru my iPhone Pictures

 

So yeah, I've been pretty lazy in writing.  And I won't make any lame excuses.  I have nothing except I try but I am just always drawing blank. 

But here are some pictures I have from my phone characterizing my life as of late..

Ga and Chai during one of our pit stops going to Manaoag.

Joma, Kobe and Vins being silly in the gym

Jermaine cutiepatootie posing for me after cupcake time :)

Sisters ❤️❤️❤️

Vins, Marl and I showing our teef. :p

Hmmm. Doing this post made me realize I do not take as much pictures as I used to.  But I know I have tons of videos.  Maybe I can post some here once I am able to upload them all on vimeo. :)