ramblings

So for the nth time, I could not sleep and my back is killing me. It's a slow painful murder if you ask me.  I haven't been in high spirits lately, I feel exhausted and sad. And all this thinking doesn't quite help, rather it adds to the confusion and ache. I am on a mission to find that switch that would turn off the brain from running wild when it's time to sleep. Really, I just want to sleep. :(

Anywho, while I try and fail getting to sleep, I find this quote from my archives - and really it is striking too close to home.  From an old tumblr I used to follow, it reads:

The secret is, I trust people too much too easily.  When someone asks for my attention, I more than happily plunge into their gaze, smile too much and listen too much.   I create a false image of someone else on my own, believe their sincerity with my whole heart.  Therefore I am my own downfall, and there is not one person to blame besides myself.