Sometimes you think you have gained ground by reining yourself in despite all your impulses.. Think again, because with a single breath, it is gone. And as quickly as you can say Hi - you are back in that roll coaster of  emotions. You will find yourself reciting the monologue you so wish worked the first time. Addicted to the temporary high you get from that simple thing, but really you must quit. For your sanity, you must.

end of the road?

feels

no words, just these.

 

ramblings

So for the nth time, I could not sleep and my back is killing me. It's a slow painful murder if you ask me.  I haven't been in high spirits lately, I feel exhausted and sad. And all this thinking doesn't quite help, rather it adds to the confusion and ache. I am on a mission to find that switch that would turn off the brain from running wild when it's time to sleep. Really, I just want to sleep. :(

Anywho, while I try and fail getting to sleep, I find this quote from my archives - and really it is striking too close to home.  From an old tumblr I used to follow, it reads:

The secret is, I trust people too much too easily.  When someone asks for my attention, I more than happily plunge into their gaze, smile too much and listen too much.   I create a false image of someone else on my own, believe their sincerity with my whole heart.  Therefore I am my own downfall, and there is not one person to blame besides myself.

It feels like my insides are being smooshed together. Exactly like that.

Timing.

Timing. Such a tricky thing. Why does it seem like every single thing needs the perfect timing? Today, for the past few days actually, it felt like I have missed some very crucial moments. Moments I will not get back. Gone forever. And I am here typing this and wondering, what kept you from saying it then? And then I sigh. 

Truth about Truth

We always say that truth would set us free, but what we often times forget is that it can also be heartbreaking and messy.  We think we are okay with everything but we are wrong because emotions can be tricky things.  We may tell ourselves repeatedly that some stuff doesn't matter and that we will live but really it will crush us first - crush us like a bug.

Truth is awesome.  But sometimes, it just you punches square in the face and you can't do anything but walk away with your bloody broken nose.

Beach, Beach

I do not particularly like beaches, but in Cebu you really can't avoid them. :)  I didn't go into the water but these are just some of the pictures I took because I couldn't help myself.  They are just too beautiful.

Movenpick Hotel

Abaca Resort

Shangrila Hotel

White Sands Resort and Spa

Eating My Way Through Cebu

Our office sent me to Cebu to hire and train a new member for my team.  Where I stayed is located in a totally different island from the main city, so I am only able to go walk about the city during the weekend.  I am actually not a beach person, so I didn't go "beaching"- but that scene is really good too!

So here are some pictures of the things I ate :)  Some of these pictures are already posted in Instagram. 

There were a lot of seafood everywhere!  For lunch when I first got there, we went to a seaside restaurant where we ordered baked scallops, grilled fish and shrimps!

my first meal - lunch.

For the first time in my life, I lived all by myself.  So i ate a lot of ramen and spam and crackers.  I loved it too. :D

spamwich

My favorite place I went to would be Bucket Shrimp!  Pails of shrimp in cajun sauce. Need I say more?

yuuuuum!

In IT Park, there are a lot of really good restaurants.  Kiko and I went to Irie Gastropubliko, where we got really yummy burger.

Chile Chicano Burger

Breakfast as we all know, is the most important meal of the day; and so I did a lot of breakfast eating - buffet style in Cebu.  Movenpick is my favorite.  The place is nice and the food good.

look at that stack of bacon! *drools*

Italian food?  We went to La Tegola.  Authentic Italian and price point is reasonable.

Spaghetti al Cartoccio and Quattro Formaggi

Another buffet restaurant we went to is Tokyo Table.  Asian fusion food - hot plate for Korean Barbecue and a bunch of other choices.  It was okay but they have the most delicious Maki Crunch.  I can eat the entire display! :S

japanese rolls is heart

Abaca Boutique Resort and Restaurant is simply beautiful.  The place is great and the food is super yummy but it is a bit pricey.

Roasted Prawn Spaghetti

Creme Brulee

I ate a lot of Cebu yummy treats too!

Carcar Chicharon that were just cooked! 

Puso: Rice cooked in banana leaf.

thats me and my friends excited for the yummy spicy lechon belly!

And of cours, dessert!!!  Ice Cream, always. :)  I wanna eat all the flavors in Texas Creamery.

Kookie Dough

Krazy Kolors

 
And Oreo Madness from TGI Fridays. :)

Truth is I've so much to write about. I've yet to blog about my stint in Cebu and the places I have visited there like a whirlwind. I also want to write about my latest visit to the National Museum - walking about in Manila. 

I will have to carve time and sit and actually put to paper - or type to screen my thoughts. But for now, I have quite a bit of things to do. :(