I went to mass yesterday with my family and found myself at a loss for knowing exactly what I want to pray for myself.

I know precisely what to pray for, for each of my friends and sisters and brother and parents.  I have my little prayers I say for each one tucked inside a small pocket in my head.. but when it comes to what I shall pray for for myself, it seems that I am unable to articulate in my mind what it is i want.  It is not because I have nothing that I want to pray for - this is actually the opposite.  I think I want so much that I don't know what to say first.

I was also thinking, if I pray for something, I have to be specific and clear.. and it has to be just.  Something that in my heart of hearts I know, I want and ready to receive.  And so, I end up praying for the little things in my life that is kind'of not so great now.  Those parts that makes me want to crawl into bed and stay there for weeks.  Those that I know starts the eating away my sanity and make me question.  For myself, that's what I pray for.

sleep

Lately I have been feeling really tired. So tired that I wish I could just crash in bed and not get up for weeks.  So tired that I couldn't think straight.  I need to sleep this off. Whatever this is.. I have to sleep this off.

To a beloved friend and brother

I usually know what to say.  But this time, I kept thinking, what can one say except..  May you rest in peace my friend.  I love you.


Philippians 1:3 "...I give thanks to my God in all my remembrance of you"