I'm the type of girl that overthinks, over-analyze and believes in crazy signs and dreams.  I use my heart more than my head sometimes.  I am emotional - to a  fault and most of the time, says too much to certain people and wishes i didn't after.

I often do something and kick myself in the butt after for doing it.  I think non-stop of the whatifs and the could'ves.  I am overly concern about things and people I truly care about that sometimes I get myself in touble for it.  But a friend told me - i could be all that but that doesn't make me broken.

That made me smile.  The kind of smile that can be felt through the heart.  I will work on being too emotional and saying too much.. but for now I am glad to say.. I may be flawed but I am not broken.

Year-End

‘09 is for thanksgiving and lessons.  A year of drama, reunions and starting over; pushing and pulling of boundaries set for myself.  It is a year of learning about people around me and even things about me.  Missing old friends and making new ones. Such a great year!



 Things I’m grateful for:

• I turned 26 this year and felt oh so mature! Hahaha
• Finished SCP after a year of dilly-dallying about what I want and don’t want
• Went back to school.  All the waiting and the whining seems to be worthless after taking that first step. 
• Friendships that grow beyond the walls of PS.
• All the other little things that made each little moment of my year as wonderful as it is.

Things I’ve learned and thought about:

©  Sometimes, life has a better idea
©  Other people’s feelings are more important than my opinion
©  I can stand being with people that I don’t necessarily like, but I choose not to.
©  Changes are okay - sometimes
©  I am my worst critique –I question my own intensions several times even.
©  Nothing is as it seems, but taking it at face value is easier on the heart  J    
©  Life has a way of balancing itself out.
©  Laughing chase away all types of illness.
©  Crying might not solve things, but it helps you feel a tiny bit better.
©  Listening to people could be rewarding
©  There are definitely different kinds of people out there – and they WILL surprise you!
©  The hardest part of starting over is deciding for sure that you are starting over.
©   When you expect things to be easy.. it might just not be.
©  I wear my emotions like I wear my clothes.
©  There are things that you gotta talk about just because.
©  My friends know me and there is no point in hiding my emotions
©  Technology bridges gaps.  MMS, SMS, Emails and Phone calls play vital roles in staying in touch with people who matter.
©  Sometimes beating yourself thinking about stuff isn’t enough.. you gotta talk yourself through it.
©  Hugs are the best things in the world
©  It’s okay to make the first move if it will make things all better
©  Its okay to cry and feel bad sometimes – but there shall be a point where you pull yourself together

With these I close the year and start anew.  2010 shall be AWESOME!  I know it!