So, I've been thinking that I should just listen and surround myself with things that would make me happy and not totally make me act like am neurotic or something.  I've been thinking so much about it trying to figure out how I'd start.  Then, I saw Taylor Swift on Ellen this afternoon being such a teenager and totally cute.

And so now, I am downloading her songs.  Yep, I am.  I am thinking baby steps.  I like her, should be good right?

Secrets

Laughter Cures

I posted some pictures in my Tumblr of me laughing with friends.  I liked doing it so much, I will post some of it here too. :)

Laughing in Salcedo

B'ley after the Inday Badiday Joke

Clang laughing pretty

Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live

laugh is a smile that bursts

I am thankful for laughter

Laughter is the shock absorber that eases the blows of life

Laughter is the spark of the soul

If I stop laughing - I’d be dead

hohum

Am back to my old thinking self; being surrounded by friends who have been “fixing” and living their lives now got me thinking again about what I really want to do with mine.  This isn’t something bad, I’m actually glad that my friends are making stuff happen for them, it’s just sad that at 26, I can’t even answer the simple question of what I really want to do.

I am actually doing my best not to think about this anymore.  I really really don't want to think about it since it only frustrates me.  I have this uneasy feeling in my tummy every time it crosses my mind.  I hope this isn’t the 2nd round of QLC, because honestly I am glad I’m done with that part of my CW life.

GoodStuff

Yep, it’s easy to zoom in on the bad stuff; those parts of your life that are falling to pieces, the part that’s kind of tattered.  This week, a friend said I have been a bitch.. And I’m afraid he is right, I have.  It was a tiring week, but at the end of all the hullabaloo, it’s all okay.  I am blessed and I should be thankful.  I am thankful for the little tiny stuff that I overlook time and again.

I am thankful for the job that pays the bills.  The job that opened so many doors and friendships.

I am thankful for the family that will forever and ever be there for you no matter how broken and helpless you are.

I am thankful for friends that will surprise you how far they will go for nothing and just because.

I am thankful for modern medicine and fast transportation.  For technology and human kindness.

So, lets zoom in on the good stuff instead, sometimes it's hard but we need to do this.  Some people are just fighting such harder battles than the petty things I have on my plate now. :)