So yeah, I've been pretty lazy in writing.  And I won't make any lame excuses.  I have nothing except I try but I am just always drawing blank. 

But here are some pictures I have from my phone characterizing my life as of late..

Ga and Chai during one of our pit stops going to Manaoag.

Joma, Kobe and Vins being silly in the gym

Jermaine cutiepatootie posing for me after cupcake time :)

Sisters ❤️❤️❤️

Vins, Marl and I showing our teef. :p

Hmmm. Doing this post made me realize I do not take as much pictures as I used to.  But I know I have tons of videos.  Maybe I can post some here once I am able to upload them all on vimeo. :) 

Ways to Know if You're Growing Up - Or not.

I used to keep a blog over at multiply. A blog that I have taken down long ago, but I was looking over my mail archives and saw some notifications from my posts before.  It is fun reading about my old self and realizing I have changed very little since. That could be a bad thing, no?

Anywho, on March 16, 2009 i posted this.

One of my favorite blogs to read is The Wild and Wily Ways of a Brunette Bombshell.  In her archives, she posted an entry entitled 9 ways I know I'm growing uP.  It Caught my attention because the first one was, 1. I've given up soda. Not entirely, but almost.  I love it.  I shared this with a friend who also liked the post and asked me what would be my 9 ways. As usual it made me think.  Wala akong maisip kahit isa.  I’m resigned to the idea that I may not be grown up yet.  I have a lot more growing up to do I guess.  A LOT MORE!

But this wonderful friend that I have amazingly wrote his 9 Ways in less than 6 mins.  Grabe noh?!  After he finishes typing his answers isa lang ang nasabi ko: shet grown-up ka na nga!  With his permission.. Instead of mine, I am posting HIS 9 Ways he knows he's growing up.
 1. I become more realistic than idealistic
2. I become less self-conscious
3. I only mind people who matter
4. I learn to forgive
5. I let go of my convictions if I'm given a more logical reason to believe otherwise
6. I gave up my vices- soda, cigs, pork, beef.  Meaning I live a lot healthier with proper diet and exercise
7.  I spend less on clothes and more on things that will enrich my experience like traveling
8. I earn more and get to share more
9. I laugh at my old self and realize how I like what I have become over the years.
And so.. while I type this, hindi pa rin ako nakakaisip but I am not  in a hurry.  I wish i could answer the question as fast as he can.  Pero hindi I can't eh.  Not yet, i guess.  But It'll come to me.  I know it.

This totally made me think again! Golly, how do I know if I am growing up.. it had been 5 years and I haven't gotten around to making my list.  I have been racking my brain and nothing. So yeah, here's a list of ways I am still a big baby.

1.  I am scared shitless of change. I dont like the fact that things can change in a heartbeat. It makes me uneasy. 
2. I do not like confrontations.  I find myself doing things that aren't my responsibility because I'd rather finish it than confront people about their inefficiencie.
3. I overthink. All the time.

There's probably a million and one more ways to prove am a baby but I am cutting this list short. Yes. Yes I am.

Today.

I hate hate hate the fact that despite my good reason, I still get affected by things that I have for real no control over. 

Today, something happened that trully made me want to scream. I felt hurt. Then immediately felt stupid for feeling hurt. I should be wiser and tougher and ultimately unaffected - but I wasnt, unfortunately. 

Tomorrow will be another day. I guess.

Life Update

I am currently taking a short break from work to write this down because I am getting a massive headache.  I know I know. I have been a bit of an MIA again.  I know you know I will say it is because life has again taken over everything.  I have no excuse.  I wish I can write more.  I do, only for the simple reason that it gives me an outlet to breathe out all of the things that have been building up inside of me - good, bad and ugly. 

Life has been pretty good the last couple of weeks.  Some days were even awesome. I have been spending time with friends which is sweet because for awhile there I was totally becoming anti-social. :p. As you know Z came home for a short visit. That was fun.  Got to spend time with her and Clang and our other friends from PS.

Marl, Gracie and I with some more friends caught Wicked! It was amazing!!  Everything was perfect, I am so glad I was able to see it. :) 

I have been spending time with Noel and Kiko too.  Just going to movies and a quick drive to Tagaytay. 

There was just a slight hospital scare for a bit. Last week, my dad got rushed to the hospital after passing out in Church.  He stayed for a week but all is good now.  There are still tests but I'm sure everything will be alright.  We drove to Manaoag for thanksgiving that my dad is well and healed. 

Here are some pics from the Manaoag Trip. 

So, that is pretty much everything I have been up to.  Will write more soon- crossing-fingers. :)